Idle Thoughts

Just a quick one this morning, as I am heading to work in hmm, fifteen minutes.

I was uber down yesterday.  And it took me almost all day to word it in a way that Mistress could understand.  It comes down to the thought that I fear a simple Order from Sir would mean that I would be cut adrift, relationship wise, and go to just friends or something.  Mistress said why on earth would he do that, but to me it is a kinda sorta valid concern, especially since she has given him control of all her life, apart from the kids.

And I haven't had sex in six months, and I could very well be heading into a non sexual relationship over There.  I am wondering when or if I will be in the Big Bed again, even to sleep.

But, after I actually got Mistress to understand things, I cheered up a bit.  I caught up with a couple of my besties here, and had the stray thought of whatever would I have done without them, especially H, whom I catch up with a couple of times a week.  And the mates that I went out with on Monday want to catch up again, to the extent of putting a date in the diary.  Mmm, brunch and kidnapping - squee!

Oh, and t-minus EEK moment - Mum booked a moving truck yesterday, for me to leave the unit and move in with them for my last couple of weeks Here.