Is apparently how many I earned by getting Mistress random flowers today. She has never gotten flowers that weren't tinged with either guilt or actual birthday or special occasion, and to send them There from Here, I'm not sure whether she has gotten her mind around it yet. I used to do it - sending flowers for no particular reason - with my exes from time to time, so it's not a huge OMG OMG thing for me, as opposed to Mistress, who apparently looked at the bunch as if they were live snakes or a bomb or something.
I made her day apparently. Though Sir makes her millenium.
She went to her shrink yesterday, who gave her a week off work. During the appointment, she didn't mention me at all. Which made me feel unimportant, in a sense. Mistress said she was only talking about the negative things in her life, so of course I didn't come up in that sense, but still, I dunno, I just think that if an important part of the jigsaw puzzle is soon to be sorted out, wouldn't you mention it? Just, I dunno how to explain it.
And earlier on in the week, when we were discussing how to explain the situation to my parents, Mistress said that she would introduce Sir as her partner. Which of course he is, but just the way it came across, made me feel like chopped liver. That was what silenced me in that conversation more than any awkwardness about my parents - they have supported me in all my madcap schemes before, I am sure they will do so in the future.
And, I'm spent with the thinking tonight. Tired, as well as if I chase that particular topic down that particular rabbit hole, it likely won't be a whole lot of positivity. And we are all about the brownie points via the flowers right now lol.
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