LDRs

Two questions I have had over the last couple of days.  How to be a better partner to Mistress, and how to be a better sub to her as well.  

I see the two answers being different, though generally correlating. I have thought of those two questions as I had a bit of a freak out earlier in the week, that the last blog entry kinda sorta turned into.  Mistress does not need me falling off a cliff at the moment, or being weak or any of that.  It is kind of funny, with the relationship the way it is, that I try to be the strong, stable one, sort of a rock for the others to be able to always depend on, and I can’t be that if I meltdown every couple of days.  I used to think dependability was dead boring, but it has its place in the world, even the D/s world.

But it is the WAITING.  It is taking SO LONG.  It seems forever since I have hugged her in reality.  You can give all the air kisses and the virtual hugs in emails and texts and over the phone that you want, but they still have nothing on the feel of your partner’s body under your fingertips - and yes, I am still just thinking of hugs here.  Get your minds out of the gutter lol.

As I may have mentioned before, Sir has actually finally moved in with Mistress, and sometimes I feel silly still giving her the wake up calls, when he is right in bed next to her.  Especially when he wakes up and pokes or tickles her.  Just being able to reach across and do that, le sigh.  It’s not jealousy, I killed that off a long time ago in this situation, more a sense of longing, or something, for similar moments of love and caring and silliness and all the rest.

How the fuck did I end up in another Long Distance Relationship?  Why was I never able to meet a ‘nice girl’ Here?  Not that I would trade in Mistress for ANYONE over Here now that we have met, but, yes, LDRs.  They suck.  Ah well, I have a set date to make it a Short Distance Relationship, and I am going to work on a timetable the next couple of days, that I can work many countdowns into, not just to the flight.  And trying to keep busy, while trying to save money at the same time.

And who knows, Something might drop out of the sky and hurry my plans up.  A job, for instance.

Also, with the wanting to be a better partner and sub, I am thinking that because I want to be the best I can be for her.  I want to improve myself as much as I can, for her.  It is a bit of a cliche, but she makes me want to be a better person.  In previous relationships, I think I was happy enough being who I was at the time, but didn't really have the appetite to improve for the partner.  This time around, I do, and whether it is specifically the D/s bleeding into the rest of the relationship, I'm not sure.