Minor Frustration

How to write, to word this one?  Especially not to make it sound too whiney.

Word of the day, of the week, of the month, is 'thriving'.  Because that is what I am doing over Here.  Everything is going as well, or better, than expected.  As Mistress said yesterday afternoon, she is especially surprised at how well Sir and I are getting on.  It is more than just mere acknowledgement of one another, more than just grudging respect, I wouldn't go so far to say it is a full on friendship yet, but there is absolutely no tension there.  And now that I know he is a Judge Dredd fan lol, that is one of my own geek out topics...

But, watching Belladonna piss on herself in a vid, somehow less of an impact when a) you have twenty other things on your brain, like job searching or housecleaning and the like, and b) when you know other people in the household are having, you know, real life sex, when you aren't.

Again, I go back to Mistress saying months ago she wasn't sure whether she could offer me a full sexual relationship, and a few days ago saying I will likely have sex with others but likely not her, but it is a minor frustration.  I understand that full on sex is probably not an option this lifetime, decade, year, month?  But as I have stated before, I am happy with the ancillary stuff, like flogging, like photography, like collared and leashed, like voyeurism, but even with that, once since I got here?

As much as I have subsumed myself to Mistress and Sir since I got here, I am a boy, and I do have requirements.  I would follow Mistress through hell, high water and anything else that life throws up, and I love the hugs and kisses I get, but yes.  Oh, and the bucket list house elf thing this weekend has been rainchecked, so of course that wasn't a net positive.  Oh, and a couple of days ago, as we were talking about my unsuitability for sales jobs, unable to seal the deal, Mistress dropped in 'that is why you don't get laid that much'.  I shut down, she knows that topic is such an Achilles heel for me.

Yeah, the above probably didn't make all that much sense, but it had to be written, I had to try and get it out somehow.

The rest of yesterday?  Was assisting Mistress pull out weeds in the afternoon, which was way lovelier than it just sounded.  And went to a small party last night, with Mistress, which was nice.  Beer and pizza and talking to a couple of good friends, and the girl who likes my arse commented that next time I should show it off more.  And she made the comment in front of Mistress as well.  Intriguing.