Meltdown. For Once, Not My Own.

So yes, a lot of yesterday was spent trying to keep myself entertained while Sir and Mistress had a Them Day.  I did follow her orders to have breakfast - of course, I don't think she would have expected me to have brekkie at quarter to three in the afternoon.  But, it was good to have a day where I had complete downtime, though I did kinda sorta feel guilty about not doing much of any housework.

Oh, and it was wonderful wearing the collar all day.  It was funny, as I was writing this, I thought where is it, where is that comforting feeling of weight around my neck - and this is when I have one child in the room, and one child darting in and out.  Was a good idea to give it back to Mistress last night, rather than wait until this morning and maybe forget it when the kids got home.  That would have been an epic fail.  As in EPIC.

Anyways, so yes, pottering around the house, my internal radar, otherwise known as situational awareness, broken, off kilter or whatever without Mistress around.  The house felt so EMPTY.  Plus, the feeling of blah would have also been attributable to the endorphin crash from the previous night.  Can't stay up that high for an hour, can't stay that blissy for an extended period of time, without a crash later on.  I handled it well enough though.

But, just when I thought the day was improving when they got home, Mistress and Sir had a 'discussion' which ended up with her bursting into tears - which I don't think I have seen before - and them both zonking out with exhaustion on the couch in the lounge.  I was anticipating that we would catch up with friends later that evening, but after what had happened, I knew that they would be unlikely to even want to leave the house at all.  And, with the groceries still to do, there was hardly any food in the house, so the House Star (TM) decided to order pizza.  Delivery even, which doesn't happen all that often here.  There was NO WAY that I was going to wake them to go get food without food already in front of them.  Hehe, very Catch-22 that.

They awoke when the delivery guy was especially noisy, and Mistress, when she started to wake up and realised what I had done, had the whole startled rabbit or deer in headlights look going on.  What would they do without me?

That is an interesting enough thought to leave it hanging on the end of a paragraph, I think.  Rather than go on immediately with the next idea.  So yes, chomped on pizza, watched a gardening show and the news, and then Mistress was looking at dresses online.  Which the discussion earlier on between the two of them, that had exhausted them, had kinda sorta been about.  Dresses online much cheaper than in the stores here.  And Mistress needed to get some retail therapy going on, to which Sir and I contributed either credit card details or a transfer of funds.

By the end of the night, by the end of her shopping expeditions, she was very squee.  And then she started looking at corsets, and I remembered I had one laying around her room.  Well, not laying per se, hidden away from prying children's eyes more to the point.  Her eyes lit up and she said that I should go put it on.  Which I did.

Very interesting feeling.  Mistress asked whether I wanted it tighter, and tighter, and I did, and I did.  If I wear it more, it will definitely help with my posture.  A couple of photos taken, and then everyone started heading to bed, and the corset and collar were hidden away from prying eyes again.  If it felt weird with the corset on, it felt even weirder after having it on and then taking it off, and the feeling - well Mistress said of relief, of being able to breathe, but I felt it as more a sense of loss.  Not a major one, not to grieve over or anything, but just the corset felt good, and now with it off, I felt less good.

I was a bit blissy with it on, with Mistress tightening it up, as you may have noticed, I don't make all that much sense when I try to analyse myself in my bliss out modes hahaha.

Mistress, after her retail therapy, was happy again.  Which makes me happy.  All is right again in my world.