V and I have argued today. For an extended period of time and quite bitterly I must admit. All because (this time) I received a Xmas gift from K (a framed photo of herself) and I didn't report it to V as soon as I could have. Which of course led to oh, well I think I will email or phone her myself - which I reacted harshly to, of all the threats to bring to the table, that is my nuclear button one. Mutually Assured Destruction as it were.
Like, even if they don't do a mutual dig up dirt session on me, if you have to do that then you don't trust me enough for me to stay in your life. Really, when I look at things currently, I should sooooo be single, so much stuff to sort out in my head, but eh, V came along earlier than 'convenient' for me. Does that mean I want to ditch her out of my life now, hell no.
And then the Ultimatum came, ditch her, don't talk to her apart from Xmas and birthdays perhaps, or I'm gone - ultimatum TO me, people. I don't handle ultimatums well, I hate being ordered around, so usually when that happens I do my little stubborn dance LOL - have been doing it the past year actually, or maybe longer in fact, and look where it has gotten me.
So yes, all the New Zealand trip plans up in the air, just because I got a gift from K. With a pretty poisonous message in the card if I might say so - which got V to say, well if you can't stand up for yourself and family that's just rewarding her behaviour. And then my missing Canada (as in the country itself) thoughts come in, as my previous post, and all hell breaks loose in my head.
Gods, it's like WW3 in my brain today.
Went and saw The Incredibles to try and forget it all - good movie, may give a couple of paragraphs review of it when in a better mood - and then left one of my baseball caps (New York Mets one) at the theatre - put in a lost property thing, but who knows if that will actually do anything grrr.
Is it treacherous to V if I download Canadian band songs? Barenaked Ladies came to mind before LOL...
Pauly
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