'I am feeling awkward around you. I am unsure how to start a conversation, as I easily get tongue tied, and am also unsure about the fine line between too much smiling and eye contact, and a just right ratio, so I am averting my gaze and frowning quite a lot lately. Sitting all the way on the other side of the floor, it is not as if I can fake too much small talk.
I want to get rid of this awkwardness because I did enjoy the other week, and I would like us to work out as friends. In the past, I have suppressed myself so much at work - I was warned on a sexual harrassment thing very early on in my working life, and it has scarred me, mainly for the good, ever since - I have suppressed myself so much at work, it has become second nature to bite my tongue over and over and over again in the actual workplace, waiting for the next social opportunity to come up, usually letting things drift too much while I remain mute.
So, as I try to act all nonchalant, bon vivant, and the last two paragraphs didn't exist at all, when's the next dancing lesson? Insert cocky grin here LOL.'
What I probably will do instead -
'Hope you're having a nice day up your end of the floor. How is [insert name of unrelated to the topic at all workmate/ex workmate here]?'
[Please note - the above does not mean I am out 'looking' for anybody, as partner material. It is merely me needing to open up, to unblock myself to a potential friendship - I have gotten over the whole thought of actually doing anything along THOSE lines, which I had let my guard down to for all of about five MILLIseconds]
Pauly
I want to get rid of this awkwardness because I did enjoy the other week, and I would like us to work out as friends. In the past, I have suppressed myself so much at work - I was warned on a sexual harrassment thing very early on in my working life, and it has scarred me, mainly for the good, ever since - I have suppressed myself so much at work, it has become second nature to bite my tongue over and over and over again in the actual workplace, waiting for the next social opportunity to come up, usually letting things drift too much while I remain mute.
So, as I try to act all nonchalant, bon vivant, and the last two paragraphs didn't exist at all, when's the next dancing lesson? Insert cocky grin here LOL.'
What I probably will do instead -
'Hope you're having a nice day up your end of the floor. How is [insert name of unrelated to the topic at all workmate/ex workmate here]?'
[Please note - the above does not mean I am out 'looking' for anybody, as partner material. It is merely me needing to open up, to unblock myself to a potential friendship - I have gotten over the whole thought of actually doing anything along THOSE lines, which I had let my guard down to for all of about five MILLIseconds]
Pauly
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