Hi all - well, it's 11 o'clock Sunday night, I'm not sleepy and the highlight of the Aria Awards was seeing Kasey Chambers' dress - not quite a Rebecca Twigley, but in the same ballpark - just saved a moth that the cat had half eaten a wing off, and thought I might as well write a bit, with pen and paper as the computer would be too loud to turn on at this time of night.
Sex. Contrary to the personality I try to cultivate, especially through this blog, I am not an asexual sophisticated socialite, who appreciates the female form only artistically or aesthetically LOL - could we BE any further from the truth? The truth is I am the typical male, though I try to suppress it in my own mind as much as possible. In real life on first encounters I can be painfully shy, and the shyness gets worse the greater the attraction. Although I am getting better at that with age, not sure whether it's really better or just better acting LOL.
When left to my own devices (always dangerous) I feel I have the usual typical male appetite for porn etc. Although again, there is that suppression reflex - when I first started buying Penthouse etc it would be from a newsagent in another part of town, the brown paper bag treatment, keep it for a couple of days, a week at most, and then throw it out in a sense of overwhelming shame and guilt. To an extent, that guilt haunts me still, even in this 21st century Britney Spears Paris Hilton Pamela Anderson porn just a google away world we have now. Most of the time I still feel some sort of shortcoming or failure on my part for going to, shall we say, dodgy sites.
This site seems refreshing though (caution - material of an explicit sexual nature through link). I have always preferred words and stories on the subject rather than pics or vids - using your imagination rather than seeing the same platinum blonde girls with fake... smiles etc etc. I'm sure you get the drift. And with blogs of this nature, from what I have seen/read, most of them peter out to a slow end or bring too much of the rest of their real lives into it.
This girl has managed to stay near enough to the central point of her writing for ten months now, with the mentioning of work and an outside life adding depth to her scenario rather than overwhelming the central thrust (as it were) of her blog. No blog could survive on sex alone I feel, and the glimpses of other parts of her life make me wonder what sort of mate or drinking buddy she could be - platonically of course LOL.
And I think it is incredibly brave to put so much of your intimate self on the web - I know it is meant to be MOSTLY anonymous, but just thinking back to that Washington Congressional intern who was outted earlier this year after writing a fairly softcore account of her three or four boyfriends. I wonder if I were in a situation of serial dating shall we say whether I could write that freely (suppress suppress LOL, see how well I am trying to tiptoe delicately around this entire entry!).
Instant messaging yeah sure, I can be very open in that environment, but blogs or emails, hmm - and I think it would come across differently writing as a guy as well. Would it be more of a boast?
Anyways, think I will cut and paste (when on computer) this and email it to the author of that linked site, just to let her know I appreciated the reading material - and no, not just in THAT way. Notes of appreciation are usually good :)
Pauly
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