+ 004

It was Fancy Casino Restaurant Extravaganza tonight. With *the boss* lol. And it was worth every cent. The food was amazing, the service was outstanding, the atmosphere and company were brilliant. Probably the best restaurant experience I have had in months, if not years.

I have been to various fine restaurants the last few months, but always you knew the real world was outside the door, waiting, waiting for you to reappear. With tonight's experience, it took you to another plane of existence almost, where you could completely forget about everything else. It was That Good.

And to be honest, getting away from the real world was just what she needed. The black cod miso was the best food she had ever tasted, so much so that she completely forgot whatever her favourite dish was before tonight. She said she was having foodgasms with almost every course. She even apparently had glitter in her mouth from the dessert.

Quality time, with her. Worth every cent.

+ 003

Chilling after a rather busy day at work, waiting for two of my closest friends to turn up at the bar to have a relaxed evening with them. It's not the night for tequila slammers by the dozen...

+ 002

I've had rather a Profound Thought over the last couple of days.

I think my fear of rejection is gone, or at least in remission, or under control.  This has come about from the realisation that the only person with which I still have this fear will never reject me. Unless I put an extreme amount of effort into forcing her to do so.

Which I will never do.

Sure, I am going to make her angry or mad or maybe even upset from time to time, and I will have to shut up for a while, maybe five or ten minutes, but she will never actually reject me.

And as for everyone else on the planet, they can do what they want. Reject me, embrace me, or various other options. I would miss my close friends if for whatever reason they left my life, but it's not going to a thing that I fret about endlessly.

Why did I put up with that sort of fear in the past?

+ 001

I have a handful of people I would do anything for, no questions asked.

I also have another dozen or so friends I would do anything for, as long as it didn't involve jail time. And even then, if they 'convinced' me enough, I could overlook that proviso for Group B.

I am grinning quite wickedly at what convincing I would accept lol.

Two Years

It has been two years since I have moved to Perth. The craziest, happiest, most challenging, yet rewarding two years I have ever had. All the Self Confidence. All the Inner Strength.

And she still loves and cares for me. When I had every expectation that side of my life, having her in it, would fall apart by the six month mark.

I couldn't have become the person I am now without her unconditional support for me.

July 11, part 2

Finishing off dinner for her and the kids. A sense of calm, a sense of satisfaction, in being able to help, even if in a small way.

To show my inner strength in the circumstances.

July 11

That this blog is here. Being reminded of it is a positive in itself.