Well, that was a good start to my day yesterday - the train was twenty minutes late, meaning I was five minutes late into the office, the customers were besieging the office, well, the phones, but allusions of Leningrad or Stalingrad have come to mind often the last few weeks, and finally my computer refused to let itself get started for about twenty minutes.
Exactly what I didn't need with the weekend I had had. I wasn't angry for any length of time, that quickly made way to disappointment, which quickly led to a complete sense of emptiness. Wracked with indecisiveness, should I go out, should I stay home, home is safe and don't need to think about anything more complex than refighting WW2 against a computer opponent. Even fleeing online to an extent, on Sunday I am sure I was only on for twenty minutes all day.
Indecisive enough to not go out until Monday (which I had off) and even then, thinking where should I go for lunch, which direction should I take, should I get on the bus (movies, shopping centres, mindless consumerism what joy in that), or should I keep walking. Yesterday, at work, it was similar at lunchtime, no idea where I was walking to, no particular place to go...
Just a bit lost inside myself I think - today was good though, but will leave it here and get some sleep I think.
Paul
Exactly what I didn't need with the weekend I had had. I wasn't angry for any length of time, that quickly made way to disappointment, which quickly led to a complete sense of emptiness. Wracked with indecisiveness, should I go out, should I stay home, home is safe and don't need to think about anything more complex than refighting WW2 against a computer opponent. Even fleeing online to an extent, on Sunday I am sure I was only on for twenty minutes all day.
Indecisive enough to not go out until Monday (which I had off) and even then, thinking where should I go for lunch, which direction should I take, should I get on the bus (movies, shopping centres, mindless consumerism what joy in that), or should I keep walking. Yesterday, at work, it was similar at lunchtime, no idea where I was walking to, no particular place to go...
Just a bit lost inside myself I think - today was good though, but will leave it here and get some sleep I think.
Paul
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