I am withdrawing into my bunker at work, and it feels just like high school. I was always part of the freaks and geeks crowd, more so than the jocks and cheerleaders, or the 'in' crowd, or the popular lot. The title of the post of course being lyrics from Nada Surf's song Popular about how great high school is LOL.
I feel I am getting ignored by the popular crowd at work - not that I have ever really wanted to be part of the 'in' crowd, but with the changearound of seating the last couple of weeks, with my neurosis about being next to a busier corridor and thinking that people are doubling their efforts to ignore me LOL, and the fact that I was in a good talkative crowd for the past five months, and now I'm next to one of the most popular 'kids', and everyone walks and talks to him and I hide in my 'bunker'. Have hardly got any social going out or send a joke for the heck of it emails in the last couple of weeks as well, eek. Petty neuroses are sometimes the worst :)
And am thinking how to break out of this, thinking of an excuse to invite people out for after work dinner or drinks, or to have a social event, ten pin bowling came to mind (and knowing in my glass half empty way that most people would bail from anything I suggest) - thinking that it is six months until the best excuse for going out of my birthday, and with the losing staff by attrition doctrine in the office at the moment, thinking that leaving the job would be the second best excuse for going out - although in the main I have good workmates, and I am just having a neurotic week or two, and I don't really want to leave just yet (debts, debts, debts to pay remember).
The popular guy in the seat next to me said he was having last night his first at home all week - and there was I hoping for an excuse to go out on that one night, and how 'Quarterback' said he might have a quiet weekend and go to a movie - that is 80% of my weekends mate LOL. Of course, the grass is always greener brigade also plays on my mind - some people are born popular, some are neurotic loners, freaks and/or geeks.
My relatives are here for the weekend, I think I mentioned that in my last post, and they are off market shopping - V was saying I am whinging about not doing anything with anybody, and there is a gold plated opportunity to go out with people. They are family though, when I am whinging I am talking about Brisbane people LOL.
And then I think maybe I should join activity clubs in Brisbane or something - but then I may enjoy it too much. Not in the 'I don't deserve happiness' sense, but in the I may develop too many links to the city to consider moving (perhaps to Tassie?). This damned crossroads period of my life LOL.
Have got the cricket on - the Super Series test, Australia versus the World XI. The one dayers were a bit of a fizzer, with the World getting walloped by big margins in all three games, but the test is nicely poised - Oz 345 and the World innings just getting underway. I think when the ICC considers the next Super Series, they get rid of the one dayers, and just keep the test, or maybe have two tests. After all, one day cricket does have the World Cup as the pinnacle, test cricket doesn't. Just my two cents worth.
Out of all the Aussie cricketers, the one I have most time for is Brett Lee - he is a huge competitor, up there with the best of them, but if things don't go his way, he doesn't mull over it, and he usually has a smile on his face. The other Aussies, not so much time for them.
Next post will be mulling over all the international news and stuff methinks, you have been warned :)
Pauly
I feel I am getting ignored by the popular crowd at work - not that I have ever really wanted to be part of the 'in' crowd, but with the changearound of seating the last couple of weeks, with my neurosis about being next to a busier corridor and thinking that people are doubling their efforts to ignore me LOL, and the fact that I was in a good talkative crowd for the past five months, and now I'm next to one of the most popular 'kids', and everyone walks and talks to him and I hide in my 'bunker'. Have hardly got any social going out or send a joke for the heck of it emails in the last couple of weeks as well, eek. Petty neuroses are sometimes the worst :)
And am thinking how to break out of this, thinking of an excuse to invite people out for after work dinner or drinks, or to have a social event, ten pin bowling came to mind (and knowing in my glass half empty way that most people would bail from anything I suggest) - thinking that it is six months until the best excuse for going out of my birthday, and with the losing staff by attrition doctrine in the office at the moment, thinking that leaving the job would be the second best excuse for going out - although in the main I have good workmates, and I am just having a neurotic week or two, and I don't really want to leave just yet (debts, debts, debts to pay remember).
The popular guy in the seat next to me said he was having last night his first at home all week - and there was I hoping for an excuse to go out on that one night, and how 'Quarterback' said he might have a quiet weekend and go to a movie - that is 80% of my weekends mate LOL. Of course, the grass is always greener brigade also plays on my mind - some people are born popular, some are neurotic loners, freaks and/or geeks.
My relatives are here for the weekend, I think I mentioned that in my last post, and they are off market shopping - V was saying I am whinging about not doing anything with anybody, and there is a gold plated opportunity to go out with people. They are family though, when I am whinging I am talking about Brisbane people LOL.
And then I think maybe I should join activity clubs in Brisbane or something - but then I may enjoy it too much. Not in the 'I don't deserve happiness' sense, but in the I may develop too many links to the city to consider moving (perhaps to Tassie?). This damned crossroads period of my life LOL.
Have got the cricket on - the Super Series test, Australia versus the World XI. The one dayers were a bit of a fizzer, with the World getting walloped by big margins in all three games, but the test is nicely poised - Oz 345 and the World innings just getting underway. I think when the ICC considers the next Super Series, they get rid of the one dayers, and just keep the test, or maybe have two tests. After all, one day cricket does have the World Cup as the pinnacle, test cricket doesn't. Just my two cents worth.
Out of all the Aussie cricketers, the one I have most time for is Brett Lee - he is a huge competitor, up there with the best of them, but if things don't go his way, he doesn't mull over it, and he usually has a smile on his face. The other Aussies, not so much time for them.
Next post will be mulling over all the international news and stuff methinks, you have been warned :)
Pauly
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