Overwhlemed

I had a bit of a meltdown this morning.  I could feel the tendrils of depression reaching out to capture me, and I didn't particularly like it.  I was fretting about how I will be paying the rent, and paying my bills, and the rest.  And I went to hospital today, as I had been referred to check a hazy patch on my retina, that my optometrist thought may be a tear.

Was not happy.

I guess I'm still not happy even now, though the specialist gave me the all clear to any retinal damage.  He freaking quadruple checked though, took about twenty to thirty minutes with bright lights and poking and prodding in my eye, not fun.

And the diet is out the window, all I want to eat is comfort food at the moment.  And lots of it.  Blah.

All the guilt.

On the positive side of things, another job interview.  And should be a strong candidate, as it is an agency job at the place I worked for seven years while in Brisbane.  A large telco, is all I will say at this point.  And apparently it is even at the same customer level that I used to do, but mobiles instead of landlines.

Along with the phone interview tomorrow afternoon for the travel industry, could be a good day tomorrow.  Could be.  Still need to decide whether I'm in the mood to go to work or not.

And had a lovely disagreement via text with Casablanca, about her take on my employment woes.  Blah again.

Watching Troy at the moment.  Hadn't actually seen it before.  It's not as horrid as I had heard it was.  Eric Bana is a great actor.  Brad Pitt is a bit meh in this one though.  And it's like a Greek Game of Thrones lol, there's Ned Stark and he's not dead hahaha.  And what the hell were the Greeks doing camping on the actual beaches, you would think they would have set up inland, where, you know, all the farms and wood and water and horse feed they needed for their supply lines would be.

But then again, this movie seems to have condensed the entire Trojan War into Spring Break.

Still not as bad as I thought it was though.

And the fact that I can bitch about a movie indicates how First World Problem the rest of my issues are.  Though just because they aren't life threatening, doesn't mean they don't have the ability to overwhelm.

Ah, I don't know what I'm trying to say.

Time for sleep.