Even with the obvious disappointment of her cancelling on me - with fifteen minutes notice, mind you - even with that, there was no corollary of thinking it was in any way to do with me. And hence it didn't lead to self doubt or self loathing or all those 'normal, regular' responses.
Well, not enough to give resistance to the rational part of me, which realised that thinking was only going on in my skull, and had no logical basis in the real world.
Well, not enough to give resistance to the rational part of me, which realised that thinking was only going on in my skull, and had no logical basis in the real world.
I am SO sorry for cancelling on you.
ReplyDeleteI'd been worrying about that meeting all day, had no idea how to approach the problem, and ended up feeling that it resolved nothing.
I feel like I can't protect the boys the way I should and that makes me feel terrible.