The realisation I am trying to resolve my issues in a positive fashion. The fact that even though I have been open about everything to exes, besties, close friends and even too many mere acquaintances, before the last few months, before her, before growing as much as I have done around her...
Before the last few months it was tinged heavily with bitterness, shame and anger. And this was to those I opened up to.
Pity my poor parents who I have never opened up to in that way, or, when I have, due to desperate circumstances, feeling forced to.
The anger, the shame, the bitterness in myself that I have kept coiled up for the better part of two decades. How was I ever going to sort that out without seeking forgiveness from those most important to me??
We haz make progress?
Before the last few months it was tinged heavily with bitterness, shame and anger. And this was to those I opened up to.
Pity my poor parents who I have never opened up to in that way, or, when I have, due to desperate circumstances, feeling forced to.
The anger, the shame, the bitterness in myself that I have kept coiled up for the better part of two decades. How was I ever going to sort that out without seeking forgiveness from those most important to me??
We haz make progress?
How are you ever going to sort that out without forgiving YOURSELF???
ReplyDeleteI am so very proud of you.