I deleted mIRC from my computer this afternoon. That programme of course being my primary window into chatrooms. I am going to try and stay out of them as well, and should have made this move a long, long time ago.
When I came back from the second trip to see H, the 'Irish, break my heart' edition, I threw myself into the chatrooms full tilt. That was my personal life basically - I was too traumatised to go out and meet anyone, and luckily I had some responsibility at work the following few months, otherwise I could have just given up on that as well.
And when I say I went into chatrooms full tilt, I shook the bars until I near enough broke it - or at least my reputation in them. I flirted over the top for about six months - it is amazing what some people will tell you, and how easy it was to press the buttons to get those people talkative. Not one of the times of my life I look back on with the most fondness if you catch my drift.
And then there was K and Canada. One of the things we quarrelled about was me sitting around online during the day, because I didn't take the time and effort to get a working visa before heading over there and not being able to work blah blah blah old story, but I had the chatroom thing going there - well, it was how K and I met anyways.
And finally, after two years back home, I am biting the bullet and getting rid of chats. At least for now, and fingers crossed I can stick to it. I mean, I don't need to go on there and meet new people - I should concentrate more on the Brisbane angle of things perhaps on meeting people IN REAL LIFE lol.
And I don't like aspects of my online persona. I am sure it is just the real life me exaggerated somewhat, and the talkative, outgoing thing is OK, but there are aspects of me I don't like on there. Hence if I stay away from chats, there will be less outlets for the less attractive parts of me. And that's all I have to say on that subject.
I was thinking about getting rid of instant messengers, but let's take one step at a time. Not sure where I wanted to go with this post, but if I got a sense of an idea across, that will be better than I think I have written...
Pauly
When I came back from the second trip to see H, the 'Irish, break my heart' edition, I threw myself into the chatrooms full tilt. That was my personal life basically - I was too traumatised to go out and meet anyone, and luckily I had some responsibility at work the following few months, otherwise I could have just given up on that as well.
And when I say I went into chatrooms full tilt, I shook the bars until I near enough broke it - or at least my reputation in them. I flirted over the top for about six months - it is amazing what some people will tell you, and how easy it was to press the buttons to get those people talkative. Not one of the times of my life I look back on with the most fondness if you catch my drift.
And then there was K and Canada. One of the things we quarrelled about was me sitting around online during the day, because I didn't take the time and effort to get a working visa before heading over there and not being able to work blah blah blah old story, but I had the chatroom thing going there - well, it was how K and I met anyways.
And finally, after two years back home, I am biting the bullet and getting rid of chats. At least for now, and fingers crossed I can stick to it. I mean, I don't need to go on there and meet new people - I should concentrate more on the Brisbane angle of things perhaps on meeting people IN REAL LIFE lol.
And I don't like aspects of my online persona. I am sure it is just the real life me exaggerated somewhat, and the talkative, outgoing thing is OK, but there are aspects of me I don't like on there. Hence if I stay away from chats, there will be less outlets for the less attractive parts of me. And that's all I have to say on that subject.
I was thinking about getting rid of instant messengers, but let's take one step at a time. Not sure where I wanted to go with this post, but if I got a sense of an idea across, that will be better than I think I have written...
Pauly
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